Invest Your Time....in YOU.

Asalamu Alaikum,

Today I spent the day being productive allhamdulilah. Usually I make a plan to exercise after Fajr Salah so its out of the way, and I accomplished it today! It felt good....but a little tiring. It helps though, emotionally, I felt happier today and I have not felt exceptionally elated since the beginning of this dreaded month.

Anyways, I need books...good books to read. Preferably related to the History of Islam. Mmmmmmmm......

Btw...I discovered the ultimate quickie indulgence for chocolate cravings. :)

1/4 cup Sweetened Condensed Milk
2 Heaping TableSpoons of Cocoa Powder.

Microwave for 20-30secs in a bowl,stir, and indulge.

You will not regret it inshaAllah. ;)

Fi AmanAllah

Bumpy, Lumpy, Furry Camels who are Mammals...lalala

Asalamu Alaikum,


"People are just like camels.Out of a hundred of them, you can hardly find one that is suitable to ride." Prophet (sallallaahu alayhi wa sallam) through Abdullah ibn Umar (radiyallahu anh).

I think that pretty much speaks for itself. Even though, I don't feel i'm excluded from that caravan of unsuitable camels :(

Few more weeks till I have to give the SAT. I'm so nervous.....InshaAllah khair.

Fi AmanAllah

Damaged "Goods"

Asalamu Alaikum,

Haven't blogged in ages. Had alot of school related, marriage related, family related, and health related issues going on all wrapped into one. Allhamdulilah life has stabilized to a degree now,and I feel I can post regularly inshaAllah.

My cousins and I, went to starbucks on thursday night, on the way back from a dinner party. For some reason, we started discussing the idea of girls being "damaged goods". As in, before marriage she has been involved emotionally, physically, or in any way with another guy.

Now, I can understand the brother's viewpoint in the sense, that the girl flirts and leaves herself out there, and thus falls into the cycle of recieving and giving attention to guys. But what about the girls who do nothing, and get involved in a proposal? What if they're engaged, and get emotionally involved?

Are they still damaged goods? And if so, how is that a bad thing for GIRLS. What about a guy who just came out of a bad engagement...isn't he less desirable due to his feelings being spent on another girl?

This concept of a girl being untouched emotionally...is bogus. I think to a degree, every person has been involved emotionally with another, and I think people who have been jipped, through a bad engagement or arranged proposal, who kept it halal always...that they shouldn't be branded the same label. They didn't do anything to deserve the pain they went too, and in their eyes, this was to turn out into a union of two, and thus feelings developed.

On the other hand...girls who flirt,have casual relations with guys, have major crushes, goo goo men on the street and in the movies, THAT, I can understand is what can result in "damaged goods" as the girl willingly and with great pleasure indulges in running around with other guys and investing emotions and time with them.

I think people who are pure hearted, will remain pure despite what they're put through, as such conditions in a halal setting only nurture positive feelings for the other. If it doesn't work out, I don't believe that the girl has become "used". Girls have an amazing capability to love, and come out strong through hard times. They're built emotionally stronger.

So to brothers, please don't label and throw pure, decent girls into the same bin with the girls who ask for it. Clearly there is a difference between what has been "Damaged" and what remains "beautiful and pure".

May Allah(swt) grant us all pious spouses who will lead us into your Mercy and your Everlasting Gardens. Ameen.

Fi AmanAllah

Good Bye.

everybodys got something they had to leave behind
one regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
theres no use looking back or wondering how it could be now or never been all this
i know but still i cant find ways to let you go

la la la

Asalamu Alaikum,

My parents are back from hajj. Allhamdulilah!!! Things are so crazyful hectic, with people coming over all the time to say congrats!

I had a gradumacation party for family on friday. It was sooooooo nice. I got a really pretty ring, a fancy thobe w/ hijab and a ca-ute purse. Allhamdulilah, I was bery happy!

I found a university here in riyadh, for women, which is quite recognized, and is a branch of Al Imam university, that offers Shari'ah. Im reallyyyy excited. InshaAllah im going in a few days to check it out and see the admission stuff. woohoo :)

I finally found one thing wrong with applying henna. It looks sooo icky when it starts fading. My hand is like orangish yellow, like I took a marker and scribbled all over my arm and hand. Im washing my hands alot nowadays, I hope it comes off super soon!

hmmmm, I FINALLY made an apple pie, without a piecrust that looks mashed and icky. It looks quite decent, but I need more practice. I'll put up a picture soon inshaAllah.

anyways, im tired, and I still have to go to a halaqa, the topic is regarding the last ayah of Surah Ya-sin, which touches on the concept of how we'll be re created. Reallyyy interesting. I always wondered about that ayah too, since i've discussed it with my dad. Lets see how much light is shed on it today.

Me is sleepy.

Fi AmanAllah

Stress is Good

Asalamu Alaikum,

Its be 2 1/2 days since my parents left for Hajj. I'm absolutely overwhelmed with work. I have to run through my arabic grammar notes, practice tajweeed ( which is sooooooo hard without sister Saira next to me.) and being a mommy of 2 kids, and house maintainer.

Its funny, because im absolutely exhausted by Ishaa, and I usually sleep right after, get up for Qiyam, sleep, and fajr. But these days, after all my work is done and my siblings are in bed, I log online and stay on. Its absurd, since I don't have time to go online as I need my sleep but there I am, talking to people I haven't too in ages.

In a way, its really good...because I haven't been in contact frequently with friends and relatives for a long while. I don't go on msn much anymore, or on forums, but its nice to know how everyones doing. On the other hand, Im half asleep while making lunch, studying, I forgot to put salt in the lasagna and everyone was like...blekh. :) I guess when my parents come back inshaAllah i'll go back into disappear mode, I get more done that way, and I need to stay spiritually stable.

My 3 year old cousin Yahya did the cutest thing. Well, its terrifying but if you see him you'll melt so anything he does is adorable. He walked out of his home, went down the street, crossed a main 3 lane street, entered the mall on the other end, walked around the shops until a man found him. The man than took him door too door in the surrounding neighborhood asking him "is this your home?" and he's very calm and telling him "No, not this one." eventually they found his home and he was returned safely to my terrified aunt.

It makes me see that kids are much more confident these days. In every aspect. My little sister is so bold and indenpendant. I didn't reach that level of confidence till very late. I suppose the times were in right now, we need tougher made people, not the soft, shaky type like me. hmm Allahu Alim.

I finished listening to Imam Anwar Awlaki's lectures on the Signs of Judegement, it was excellent. Im starting on the Stories of the Prophets, this evening inshaAllah. I just hope I can utilize the knowledge i've gained, as its serious business learning Ilm and not implementing it. May Allah(swt) grant us the taufeeq to do so.

Anyways, I need to start packing, as am spending the night at my aunts, in order to be there with them for Eid. It'll be super crazy, seeing she has the most hyper kids and next door to my uncle and his crazy kids, but mashaAllah I love them all.

Alright, back to my action packed life...woohoo.

Fi AmanAllah

No Hajj...